Chu Qin's Site

Chu Qin's Site http://chuqinphua.multiply.com/ Hey every1. i'm having my FINAL finals in 9 days. and here i am registering and typing my welcome message. woohoo. Thu, 7 Aug 2008 11:37:17 -0000 Tue, 5 Aug 2008 20:53:01 -0000 Chu Qin's Site http://images.chuqinphua.multiply.com/logo http://chuqinphua.multiply.com 100 100 Last day as FY1 my last day today as FY1/ intern/ houseman! feeling a bit sad and nostalgic. A year of initial tears, stress and steep learning curve to the current laughters, socialising with senior doctors and breezing through the job; a significant milestone/set point for the years to come. thank you hannah, allan, ronan, den! u guys have been great to work with! Yet, i'm ready to move on. I'm well ready to move on. Time to take on more responsibilities, be more independent, to learn new things. How exciting! can't wait. http://chuqinphua.multiply.com/journal/item/44/Last_day_as_FY1 Tue, 5 Aug 2008 20:53:01 -0000 updates couple of updates of my current being 1) found a new flat at a central location! really pretty and modern too. http://www.scottishaccommodationindex.com/accommodation_edinburgh/canongateselfcatering.php this flat used to be for short term let, which explains its good condition. But the owner decided to go for long term let. It's a bit more expensive than our original budget. but still tolerable la. 2) Finishing my house officer year in 1 and 1/2 weeks' time. Yay! will no longer be the most junior and will have my own bitches to boss around! ahaha 3) Summer here now. really hot lor. at night cannot sleep. 4) Miss home again. and then when i was moaning to yuetpeng about it. she said. 'eh? it's not even long since u last gone back'. then i thought, oh ya hor. i only went back during CNY in february. Hmmm...then why is it that i feel like my memories of home is blurring liao...? 5) Cutie guy with big eyes and long curly lashes who happens to be a medical student attached to my ward currently. b... http://chuqinphua.multiply.com/journal/item/43/updates Thu, 24 Jul 2008 20:01:29 -0000 New York 28/6/08 - 5/7/08 New York trip with Yuet Peng, Meei Jiun and Ue. Fabulous, swanky, robust shops, great food but rude ppl. The only ppl who're nice to you are those who want money from you (eg. waiters who want you to http://chuqinphua.multiply.com/photos/album/9/New_York_28608_-_5708 Sun, 13 Jul 2008 21:28:05 -0000 五月天-純真 Again, her lofty pride prevented her from admitting more than she would. They both have been working in the same office, same team. Both young apprentices, setting out to prove themselves. She was a self-assured, capable and ambitious. He sees that part of her and yet was never threatened by it. He was also apt and reliable but more lay back, perhaps because of his good looks, he could afford to be. Other female colleagues were always more eager to help. She always teased him about how shamelessly he uses his charm and looks to get his way around things. They laughed about it. Together they were a seamless, supporting each other through work She could see family was deeply rooted in him by the way he talks about his family, which was perhaps rare for someone his age. They talked about the future with surprising similarities in their ideologies. He tells her about his girlfriend, with such pride that she knew that that girl was a lucky woman. He asks her ideas about gifts to send ... http://chuqinphua.multiply.com/video/item/12/12 Mon, 9 Jun 2008 21:22:31 -0000 Prague 10 - 15 May 08 http://chuqinphua.multiply.com/photos/album/8/Prague_10_-_15_May_08 Sun, 18 May 2008 12:19:46 -0000 迷思那天,看着'康熙来了', 一位评审老师对一位半红不黑的歌手唱的一首对他自己很有意义的歌作出这样的评价: '我劝你们放弃这种迷思. 要找适合你自己歌声的歌来发挥, 而不是着重于什么意义. 因为那首歌对你再有意义, 你表现不出来,也是枉然.' 针对于这个评论, 我是同意一半. 一般人来说,都会选一些对自己比较有纪念价值/意义的歌来唱, 或许因为比较能够融入情感而从而引起共鸣吧. 到某种程度上我觉得是对的. 毕境有背景/故事的歌, 人听起来,比较有画面. 就好比很多偶像剧的主题曲/片尾曲, 倘若只是在收音机听到,它或许只是再平凡不过的一首流行曲. 可是因为剧中的画面带动, 那首歌反而能让人感动. 再说吧. 好像张宇的'四百龙银', 是描述张宇外婆因为四百龙银被卖到台湾及一生坎坷的命运. 它也是张宇多年来第一次录音哭到崩溃而录不下去的一首歌. 因为这首歌背后的故事,让它更有画面. 可是我也同意评审老师的话. 像节目里那位歌手吧. 他说是因为他女友很喜欢那首歌, 所以他选唱了那首歌. 音色平平, 唱着'静静的'这首抒情歌, 没办法把技巧表现出来, 听了就像路人唱ktv那样, forgettable.  反观, 如果他选了一首比较调皮而能够让他作些舞台创意表演, 反而能让人惊艳. 还有什么其他的迷思, 贴上来大家一起讨论吧! http://chuqinphua.multiply.com/journal/item/42/42 Sun, 18 May 2008 11:56:49 -0000 so tah-yerd.... after 11 days non stop of slogging at work, with 1pm to 11pm shift last 7 days...so tired...tired to the point i became cranky. For example. I usually bitch about nurses behind their back (with little remorse, oh come on. we all do), but i'm usually NICE when i'm with them, honestly, i am! (within reasonable means). But today i actually told 2 nurses off. 1st one bleeped me FIVE BLOODY minutes after one of her colleague called me to do the VERY SAME discharge script for a patient. I didnt shout la. i juz asked  'is it a script for so-and-so patient? your colleague juz called me 5 mins ago for the same thing. I'm in a middle of assessing this patient who's query PE (ie. someone who could DIE), I will get there as soon as i can'. phoah. good to get that off my chest. I wonder if she managed to detect the sarcasm in my tone. 2nd nurse called me at 10pm when i was in a middle of dealing with 2 sick patients (one with hyperkalaemia and another with renal failure (creatinine 900), again,... http://chuqinphua.multiply.com/journal/item/41/so_tah-yerd.... Thu, 8 May 2008 23:22:36 -0000 恋上另一个人 One of the contestants in 超級星光大道第三 dueting impromptu with 游鸿明 - 恋上另一个人. The thing is, that contestant wasnt even that good when stand alone. and, i watched this song's original MV on youtube, and this life version is so much more moving than the original MV. It was fully spontaneous, yet the 默契 is so good. one harmonises and the other one sings, then they switch over. and sometimes, allowing some solo's. brilliant piece. i guess these are the 'magical moments' that makes all these reality tv shows worth watching... P.S. dun bother continuing once they finish singing. waste of time. i juz duno how to cut the http://chuqinphua.multiply.com/video/item/11/11 Fri, 25 Apr 2008 22:48:17 -0000 想家 寂寞. 想家. 想念爸妈洁渊. maybe i should juz go back Spore and work. maybe i'll be happier. thanks yuetpeng for accomodating me. http://chuqinphua.multiply.com/journal/item/40/40 Tue, 22 Apr 2008 22:01:25 -0000 Taiwan Dec 2006 was trudging through my USB disk to clear up some stuffs and found these pics. Have to say. i was never that photogenic. but i really love this set of pics. and although, Taiwan trip was not that amazing in terms of its attractions etc. It was great great great fun to go on a trip with the whole family. Hope we'll be able to do it again some time soon. New Zealand, http://chuqinphua.multiply.com/photos/album/7/Taiwan_Dec_2006 Sun, 13 Apr 2008 10:36:13 -0000 Urology i hate urology.It's my current job. I actually don't dislike the specialty itself that much. i just hate the surgeons, ie. my seniors. My registrar told me to call the Professor of Cardiology (not to mention, at the same time, prominent cardiologist in the world. Try google-ing Keith Fox.) to find out about what drug the patient was taking (coz the patient was participating in this Drug trial that the Professor is chairing and needed to go for an operation and I have spent the prior 2 hours calling all the research nurses, professor's secretaries, research fellow etc and can't get any1). F**king hell! The professors only chair the projects and give ideas and present the final paper. But they DON"T KNOW and WON'T KNOW about the minute details of the patient. This registrar who has been in medical field this long shouldnt be so stupid not to know that. and of course. the professor was away in South Africa for conference. hah. To put it in perspective for the non me... http://chuqinphua.multiply.com/journal/item/39/Urology Wed, 9 Apr 2008 22:02:50 -0000 无聊 刚才,出外跑步.跑到一半,下起雨来了. 跑呀跑,头发湿了,雨滴也不停的在我的脸上滑落. 突然觉得自己好像剧中主角那般因为失恋/受了什么刺激的,在雨中边跑边飙泪,蛮帅的.   无聊. 我知道. http://chuqinphua.multiply.com/journal/item/38/38 Sat, 29 Mar 2008 18:39:13 -0000 moving on... Moving on to my next job, Urology next Wednesday. Sure gonna miss the relaxed pace and ample senior support in Respiratory. Nevertheless, I do think it is time to move on too, to learn new things. received feedback from my tutor/supervisor regarding my performance over the last four months today. quite pleased actually. He said 'you really did go for it, and you got more out of this rotation than the others because u went for it'. He was referring to the Audit project that i did with Gareth, my FY2. The project for which i get out of bed 1 hour early everyday, including Saturday and Sunday to collect data over the span of 1 month. hard work, but the consultants liked it when me and Gareth presented it. Of course, Gareth's done loads, especially on data interpretation and analysis, which i have very little inkling of. He also said, at the consultant meeting earlier, my name was mentioned, and they said i should 'train' the next batch of FY1's on how to operate the TRAK ... http://chuqinphua.multiply.com/journal/item/37/moving_on... Fri, 28 Mar 2008 23:29:03 -0000 失眠记 半夜十二點半, 床上转辗了一小时有余,仍然不能入睡. 累垮了.连续工作了9天, 加上今天的9am 到9 pm, 快支持不着了. (真不知如果回Ｍｓｉａ每隔两天要开夜班的话,我会怎么撑.) 平时的半杯3合1  nescafe, 撑到下午1点就run out了, 加灌了一杯半的咖啡, 导致现在的失眠. 这种半累半吭奋的状态, 久违了.   睡不着,思绪紊乱,无条无理的胡思乱想. 因为怕自己想歪钻牛角尖,拎起电话就call.  一call，call 美君. 电话那头一接起,喋喋不休,上着夜班. 说了一大堆她工作上的 politics , 被某某人骚扰啦 etc． 另一头的pager 响起, 她说她得去工作了. 我… 我… 我要说的事情,还没说到呢.   二call ,call 妈咪. ‘周末为什么没call回来?’ ‘做工嘛.’ ‘干嘛听起来声音那么累?’ ‘工作了9天嘛.’…………‘不要那么迟睡, 家里每个人都ｏｋ． 好啦, 我肚子疼,不讲了, 早点睡,啊.’ ‘哦.’   三call ，call Ue. 他说也很累,而且鼻子塞了,不舒服.好像要病了.嗯,明天可能会请病假. 我… 差一点… 差一点就到嘴边了, 快要说出来了. 又害臊, 说不出口. 他累了,要睡觉了. 好吧,算了.   四call, call Bang．死仔. call 了第三次了,怎么一直不接电话? 应该从 Malaysia回来了吧?   想要call洁, 可她现在应该在上课吧? 唉.   于是就开灯起来写了这篇 blog.   其实,我只是想说, 今天,那个超好人,超慈祥,超 knowlegeble 的 洋人大哥哥 Senior Registrar 把跟我借去的 stethoscope 套回我颈上时, 瞬间有一种被照顾,被疼爱,小妹妹的感觉. 好爽噢. 可是不行啦,人家有了老婆了啦,还是个马来友族呢. 只是瞬间的感动而已啦. 真的没什么. 就这样.   如果我告诉你,我现在边写边听着陈奕迅的 ‘全世界失眠’, 你会说我做作吗?   我惨了啦. 一点半了.明天还要9am 上班. 完了. http://chuqinphua.multiply.com/journal/item/36/36 Wed, 19 Mar 2008 01:25:55 -0000 任性 那天,做了个梦,一觉醒来,如沐春风. 细节是忘了.男主角的样子也模糊了. 重点是,梦里面我是那么的蛮横任性, 而他却是那么的一直纵容我,迁就我. 睡醒了,心中还是甜滋滋的. 下次要是被问及男友条件的话, 应该就说要找个会纵容我的任性的男人吧! http://chuqinphua.multiply.com/journal/item/35/35 Tue, 4 Mar 2008 20:06:43 -0000 back in edinburgh 2 wks back in Msia for CNY was gr8. just too short. most important thing being, 5 of us, family, together. Jie's back from Melbourne, me back from UK. Mum's still mum, always ngee-ngee-ngor-ngor kept bugging me again and again about not buying CNY clothes for myself and kept buying things for others and duno how to make myself look good and muz make myself more presentable bcoz 1st impressions are always important and how can i find a bf if i dun dress myself properly and if i dress myself properly i would feel good about myself etc. I know she loves me. Until she cannot tahan then brought me to some boutiques in bangsar to shop. Thank god (phew!) i managed to find something (coz i hv always been picky and she gets stressed everytime she brings me shopping coz we'd shop for hours and never get anything). She loves me. daddy's busy as ever with his work. still keeps booking badminton court (i think we played almost 3 times/ wk) to play badminton court with us though. he's getting old, i... http://chuqinphua.multiply.com/journal/item/34/back_in_edinburgh Sun, 24 Feb 2008 23:11:16 -0000 CNY 08 back in Malaysia Some photos taken from my trip back to Msia for CNY. http://chuqinphua.multiply.com/photos/album/6/CNY_08_back_in_Malaysia Wed, 13 Feb 2008 06:49:20 -0000 dissappointed i only wanted to meet with my frens so long of not seeing each other. cancelled playing badminton with my dad, bro and sis and freed up a whole day to go meet them despite only being back in Msia for 2 weeks. i take it. it's no big deal, missing a badminton game or two. but it just meant i took my frens seriously and took this 'date' seriously. Sigh. went there. one fren went away to do his banking and visa stuff halfway. one was nagged by bf all the time for being there with us and ended up being upset and had no mood to be around. the bf, who originally suggested the idea of meeting up (with a detailed plan of what to do starting from breakfast to lunch with dimsum and karaoke and dinner with seafood), was away busy doing his personal stuff, shopping etc. wat can i say. just utterly dissappointed. anyhow. still really glad i'm home. really glad to be at home with my family, esp my bro and sis. going for shopping with mum tmr and badminton game in the evening. yay! http://chuqinphua.multiply.com/journal/item/33/dissappointed Mon, 4 Feb 2008 15:50:34 -0000 'Have u found Mr. Right yet?' CNY round the corner, me getting onto plane to fly back to Msia in about 36 hours. in addition to looking forward to hugging my much missed family and devouring my siham kuey tiao, can't help but absolutely foresee those questions coming up from charming, well-meaning relatives during this festive season - found a bf yet? aiyor...y are u still single? So, eh, have you found your Mr. Right ar? I get these questions so often (yes i hear sighs of empathy from all Singles United), so much so that last year when i went back and saw my aunt, the very very first thing i said instead of 'how are u' was - 'nope havent got a bf yet still single and available and enjoying it but if u like u can introduce someone to me i dun mind'. Truth be told. the questions dont bother me. (altho. no real interest in answering these questions either.) bothers me more how much my love life (or the lack of) bothers them. just can't figure y all relatives under the sun can't come up with ... http://chuqinphua.multiply.com/journal/item/32/Have_u_found_Mr._Right_yet Wed, 30 Jan 2008 01:05:08 -0000 2008... 7 days more b4 i get to fly home for CNY. 3 years since i last spent CNY at home. looking forward to the food and the festive mood. stepping into 2008, things have been quite good for me so far. thank you. my work's going quite well, getting some recognition from patients and my bosses in the jobs that i do. it's quite satisfying, really. Hopes for 2008. 1) be beautiful 2) be honest and true to the heart (like how my kid sister is) 3) be successful happy 2008 and hoping to see u guys soon! http://chuqinphua.multiply.com/journal/item/31/2008... Thu, 24 Jan 2008 08:29:11 -0000 Nodame Cantabile - Lesson 5 - Gershwin [With Eng Subs] WOuld like to recommend to all of u this new japanese drama 'nodame cantabile' that i stumbled upon on youtube. it's a story about a girl who is a talented piano player but has trouble reading the score and following the conventional precision of classical music. Instead, she's free spirited and likes doing passionate improvisations. She falls for this guy who's your typical good-in-everything-arrogant-perfectionist-main-character-in -japanese -drama-guy who intends to be a world famous conductor but whose dreams are impeded by his fear of flying on plane (therefore he can't study overseas). Rest of the review can be found on <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nodame_Cantabile">http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nodame_Cantabile</a> This is a surprisingly enjoyable drama with good music - live orchestra performances, creative adaptations of classical pieces. Also, the lead actress is very likeable as this ditzy, innocent, total-mess, girl next door. all other characters also fall nicely into place. So, despite my progressively aging over... http://chuqinphua.multiply.com/video/item/10/Nodame_Cantabile_-_Lesson_5_-_Gershwin_With_Eng_Subs Tue, 15 Jan 2008 01:58:22 -0000 Lim Jeong Hee - Watch Spring she's a korean singer. apparently very talented, plays great piano, has a soulful voice and is known as the korean version of alicia keys. found this song by chance, thought it was quite nice. http://chuqinphua.multiply.com/video/item/9/Lim_Jeong_Hee_-_Watch_Spring Wed, 2 Jan 2008 22:54:51 -0000 how did they kno? when i was young, i'd always ask a lot of questions (annoyingly, especially when i watch tv with my parents) - y did pinocchio's nose grow long? y does superman wear his underwear outside, and the much dreaded question - where do babies come from etc. and it never ceased to amaze me how my parents had answers to all my questions. i always wondered, how did my parents have answers to everything? In fact, me being the first born. how did they kno what to do with me? how did they kno what i wanted when i cried? how did they know how to deal with all the tantrums? or when i fall sick? or how to do financial planning for my future education? etc.etc. Walking back alone from the bus stop after a day's shopping, i had an epiphany.  i realised. they didnt have answers to everything. they must have felt quite lost, and probably scared at that point too, and for sure, at many other points of their lives. So i figured. lost as i am now. i'll be fine. so will yo... http://chuqinphua.multiply.com/journal/item/30/how_did_they_kno Wed, 26 Dec 2007 21:33:31 -0000 ... feel like i'm not achieving what i'm capable of. Yet. not really sure what i want to achieve. I guess the problem lies wherein i still don't know what is it that i want. and i think i complain too much http://chuqinphua.multiply.com/journal/item/29/. Sat, 15 Dec 2007 00:07:13 -0000 Weekend It must have been this long since i last had a resting weekend, that i was completely at lost as to what to do and had this niggly feeling that what if there's something that i should be doing. Let's see. the last time i had a 'free' weekend muz be at least 3 weeks ago. It started with my annual leave of 7 days (but i went to lake como for the last 4 days), then came straight back to a straight 12 day stretch of work (so, no weekend), and then the following weekend i went to Krakow with Yuet Peng, my friend (hee...my mum said my kaki very gatal...keep going from places to places). felt totally unrested. u might argue - go holiday should be relaxing wat...but hey, we had to get up 6.30am to rush for bus ohkay... <IMG src="http://images.multiply.com/common/smiles/tongue.png"> Basically, in summary, what i did during the weekend was packing (moving soon to Edinburgh) and watching TVB drama. that's it. how sad life can be. I then started recalling what i used to do at home during weekends. Weekends at home always seemed busy, well if not busy, at... http://chuqinphua.multiply.com/journal/item/28/Weekend Sun, 25 Nov 2007 19:49:18 -0000 lake como hoping to go there at some point in my life. so http://chuqinphua.multiply.com/photos/album/4/lake_como Sat, 6 Oct 2007 16:08:20 -0000