been working all weekend. 8am to 8.15pm Saturday AND Sunday. only thing that's making feel good is the crap weather outside - if i can't be outside playing, neither can u. ahaha...
so tired. almost as if i didnt have any weekend at all (which, fact is, i didnt). so tired that i'm beyond point of caring. come what may.
So tired that i'm weak when it comes to temptation - ate the roast duck with its layer of really fat skin + Haagen Daaz strawberry cheesecake icecream + coke + leftover chicken from yesterday + few mouthfuls of indomee goreng. it is only reasonble to be weak when u're this exhausted.
In an absolutely bitchy mood now. that lazy nurse (b***h) with her high pitch giggle and arsy attitude absolutely gets to my nerves. there i was still having a few task to do (sorry, no details can be given. patient confidentiallity), she wanted me to do a discharge script (to discharge patients). fine. the least she could do if to get me the patient's notes ready. she didnt. i looked around, couldnt find it. asked her for it. she asked me to look for it again in the doctors' room. i looked again. nothing. asked her to call medical records to see if the notes were there at all. that b***h, the nerve she had to actually give me phone number of medical records and ask me to call, when i'm still busy with my task and many more things to do (did i say i had to cover 3 wards over the weekend?), when she's just sitting there doing nothing. really. nothing.
i wouldnt dare say anything if she was busy with jobs to do or something. she was sitting there doing nothing. Such it is in UK, or, perhaps just everywhere. Senior nurses sometimes bully junior doctors into doing things. Don't get me wrong. most times, most nurses are great. But oh, this one is just absolutely lazy. b***h. told u i'm beyond the point of caring.
I walked off later after i was done with the other jobs in the that ward. walked off to other wards to do other jobs. really tempted to just sulk and tunjuk muka warna (translate to mandarin). resisted and walked off. couldnt be asked to ask her to call medical records. only thing is, if i dun do the script, it would be the junior doctor who's coming on during the weekday who'll suffer - weekdays are generally busier - only thing is, 1 doctor covers 1 ward.
saw in others' blog that Mooncake festival coming up. miss home. never the same to celebrate it here. even when complete with mooncake, lanterns bought from chinese shops here, Chinese tea, frens. To make pretend that we're just as happy and well off celebrating it Mooncake festival here. sometimes u can only kid urself this much - that u're trying to make the best out of things, but it just isnt the same, is it?
forgive me. i'm just tired. will be ok tmr.
wooo.. ganas!!